hmx, some 4niners wenta jp de swensons eat the 1.6bucks ice cream. 5 scoops ok. wah siaox. cheap dao siao lohx. too bad i cant go. dun feel like going. n many many. hope they haf fun. =) sch was quite ok i guess. shih ying didnt come todae. she gt her piano exam. forget to wish her jia you lohx. =x haha. think she will be ok lahx. she so pro de. without her very sian. turn behind no one to tok to. only gt wenling, hong ying, weijie n dL ppl. hahax. nvm lah. can oso. very sian in sch. kinda bad mood. as usual. =x read my ex-od. ppl suan me. so sacar. cant stand. arghx. n plus plus. ok end of that. shall dwell in it later. benson asked me y i like so sad. *touched. haha. thankx ben ben. =) okok. weijie tummy pain. so ke lian. den last nite her house invaded by clever mosquitoes. haha. sway. her hand so many bites loh. aiyox. den she went home without taking the chi test. hope she can get a good rest bah.

de chi test was ok lah. copied here there. those that i forget or dun haf confidence in the word den look loh. haha. went home after that n here i am. listening to jj. cant view its lyrics at xuxule. arghx. no chi software mah. anyone noe how to be able to read n type chi words? esp in msn nicks. besides hansware?
6:14 PM

back home when most are in sch either playing rugby or participating in. didnt want to stay. apparently mood down. as usual. only some noe why im so so so pissed. sigh. my heart broke when it happened. the sound it made broke tru my thoughts and went str down to my heart. sigh. i may nt treasure it very much then. but i do now. u noe how vaulable is it to me? shrugs. dun tok bout it le. todae ray bdae. qs gave him a cake n many other stuff. den... everyone finished the cake after sch. most by playing with it. -.-" nvm. i abit lah. tio le den dun wan go back class le. see how they organise their rugby strategy lohx. i go home dat time we are like losing by 2 pts against 4/3? the gers i mean. andrew chin didnt see properly lohx. wah lao. i spotted like one huge grab by someone n many forward passings plus the laggyness when they pass the ball when they are tapped. arghx. nvm. its a game only. its a game only. boo. wish them all de best then. weijie fell down juz now. hope she's ok.

nt progressing in my revision. boo. only doing math, math n math. flooded with them. duno how to write notes for chap5 of hist. germany. boo. sigh. shall revise after this entry. hope this one is able to get published. the one on 24 apparently didnt. sigh. nvm. oso good lah. things are much betta. no need for that entry... i guess. now trying to spend less hours online so i will only be on during the afternoons bah. or perhaps i will be sleeping. past few nites didnt really sleep well. extremely lack of sleep. cant fall asleep sometimes. songs will be playing in my heads. cant stop. good luck everyone.
5:00 PM

juz back from my dad's dinner. those 7th mth stuff. the dinner was great ok. woo. lolx. den the waiters n waitresses were all sec4 loh. peng. so young. only gt one old lady. den the supervisor oso is old lady. my bro named one ger:ms plump and another:ms stressed. lolx. ms plump is i first saw de. long hair. face gt baby fats. den she walk ard i look at the floor mah. her legs damn THICK loh. omg. =x hehe. den sae sae sae, he go call her dat. ms stressed damn gao siao. she very thin ok. bamboo stick. her shoes very big den she fall down. peng. she walk hor, very fast one. den always look very stressed. den we kept laughing at her. peng. bad us. haha. after the dinner den chiong to the van lohx. if nt will miss the 1030 ferry. oh ya, we were at pulau bukom. lolx. there no reception loh. arghx. chiong loh. heng can. whew.

home now. =) tml afternoon going down to kallang for registration of chingay celebration. woo. mr loh teach. weee~~ haha. gonna haf some practice tml. sian. so long never dance le. sure cham liao tml. haha. tml muz start write notes in the morning!!
11:30 PM

oral todae. boo. it sux ok. convey was "describe an experiment u conducted." wtf. lame rite? den i started crapping bout phy experiment. resistance. sae wad given iron, steel, copper (magnetism chap kop lai de =x) n hair strand. lolx. lame. den duno y tok dao conductivity. den faster come back to resistance. den later she ask me wad surprised me. i sae the hair strand burn. =x they started laughing loh. ahhh!! later ask bout fav sub. math of coz. =) lolx. den i sae wad math no need memorise coz teacher (teoh dearest =x) give alot of ex. unlike other sub need keep memorising n memorising n memorising. den they laugh. again. ahh!! den ask wad i think bout same sex sch. boo. omg. damn lame ok. arghx. gonna do worse den my prelim. how?! T.T

todae end of common test. woo. cool man. got back a few results. sigh. lit a b4 again. chi b4. so disappointing loh. i studied. sigh. e math b4. suck! T.T wa!!! im so disappointed ok. hate myself. competitive mindset working on me again. this time im wae behind many ppl. sigh. muz work hard le. jia you ppl.
9:01 PM

diao. yuan lai my mom bdae was on mon. nt todae. -.-" lolx. nvm. todae is hist n chi test. first time chi test i actually gt time to slack. abit though. first time my han zi very little blanks. woo. lolx. no summary. yay. compre was mostly based on ur opinions loh. den crap all de wae. whew. hist, mao was on great leap forward. peng. dun wan choose the reasons y communists won, cultural revolution n china after mao, muz choose dat. dat one the least pts to write loh. see the paper i duno how to start. den anyhow crap lah. dun care. boo.

tml is amath. peng. see my notes. so thick!! arghx. boo. almost didnt make it tru the whole of it loh. so want to give up while reading on my bro bed. lolx. heng never. i suck most at the behind chaps. boo. jia you ppl!! =)
10:26 PM

hmx, ok enough of God. u juz dun get my pt. I dun discriminate God, i only discriminate those who contradict the things they learn from him. N stop flooding my chatterbox. its nt there for this purpose. arghx. bahx. attempted to del those annoying notes but den seems like all del. but i check my hist all are still intact. -.-" maybe smth wrong bah. duno. suan le. boo.

common test week. eng n e math was on ytd. e math...3pts gone. duno how to do. sigh. the sch happily tested us on the o level june paper, which is actually wad we paid for. become like we pay to get our tests. abit ironic rite? nt saying dat we dun need to pay sch fees lah, but u noe... eng was bout how light is actually harmful to us. quite interesting compre but pretty long. set by mrs tan. duno how well i will do for my summary. at first less than 1oo words loh. den add dao 157. whew. hehe. todae was ss n chem. didnt study for chem at all. last nite i write ss notes halfwae like no time le den go read the bk lohx. read on my bro bed until 9 den i happily fell asleep. =x my mom even ask me gt do hw n stuff not. i jus said yes den she off the light n put my specs on the table. my bk was still beside me when i woke up loh. so yup, didnt study. lolx. chem i tikam lahx. foo gave us the ans after lunch. gt 28/4o. =\ ok lah. since i didnt study. ss no need study lohx. i chose population. yay~~ heng ah. if nt i sure fail. den i juz crap with general knowledge lohx. hope wun out of pt. =x

tml is hist n chi. studied chi in sch. left 3 ke. hmx many nt studying the cheng yu. can dun study de loh. wun come out much. some oso learn bef le. so wadeva. heck. haha. faster gan finish chi man. hist heng i write notes le. mao zedong. bleahx. mao, mao n mao!!! ahh!!! hate him. muz come up with stupid revolutions. haha. ok. shh. later ppl from china are gonna whack me. shh. jia you everyone. ren guo tml den laxed le. thurs n fri is a sub a dae. whewx. but still its chim. boo.
3:51 PM

4 more h and im off to my mom bdae dinner. this morning i woke up at 8 by my alarm clock. realised i only slept for 7h so i went back to sleep then. woke up at 930 had breakfast that time my dad ask my wash my shoes. later my mom shout "wan me ask the maid come here n wash nt?" kao. so damn sacarstic. can she juz stop that? im always seen as the most mei yong person in the family. every meal, they will always be toking bout matters of sg or my bros. never me. de most is scold me for my results. but thats so long ago. 3 more weeks n my da ge coming back from USA. hope he can help me in my physics. i hate electricity. juz dun get it. sigh. i duno wad will happen then. boo.

haven study e math yet. after this i must go n study dat. wish me luck ok? but i bet, no matter wad results i get, my mom wun give a damn bout it. if nt good they will sae n sae, good den sae noe where my mistakes nt den end of story. T.T if u dun treat me like im existent on this earth, or ur daughter, den forget it then.
2:21 PM

whats in You thats so attractive? whats so special bout You that actually causes such a great impact on many others? Your lessons, Ive heard many. Why are your followers so into recruiting more people? Is it fun? Or is it to show that You're almighty, so much betta than others? Why isit only You that people are so interested in, while others are just seen as old-fashioned and looked down by many of your followers? why? I thought since You are known to be invincible, infallable, benevolent and stuff, your book or teachings dont have anything recorded clearly to treat everyone equally? This might be a rash conclusion, maybe you did teach, but it didnt get through well. Why? Is it that everyone has to reach this pt to realise everything that You want to inculcate in them? That pt seems so far away for people ard me. Why? The more people say how great You are, the more disappointed I get. I don't know why. I see one by one, my friends fall for You for guidance, while I, see nothing wrong with the past. Is it a must for people to believe in You before they can finally find a light in their life to follow and carry on? I admire You, the way You prove to others wrong with only yourself on your side,but somehow, I have something in me that I cant speak much of, especially in public. Why? Why are your followers doing things that contradict to what You teach? Dont your teachings get engraved in their hearts? They claim so. Im starting to doubt. Ive seen too many. Sorry.

If you're really that great, then enlighten me. Please? Appear in my dreams. Thats the only way of communication.

P.S. Im not just talking about anyone, but someone. If you know (which is pretty obvious), dont be offended. I just need to pour these out. Things that remain a mystery to me.
1:39 PM

another entry. kinda late now. in the end didnt wash my shoes. haha. had a terrible tummy ache so went to sleep instead. sleep for a short while den bei duno wad chao xing. wake up den went to the toilet. still feeling abit guai. den went back to my own bed n sleep. apparently i fell into a deep sleep n woke up only at 745. ard there bah. missed lotx of the show. T.T ate dinner. my mom dao me again. sigh. ironed my skirts den online loh. think i go study later bah. sigh. been wasting my time. apparently i feel as though ive studied enough. weird. i dont. sigh. ppl scold me in od again. when ive stablised a little n things seemed to haf quieten down, u hafta do dat. fine. ive said enough in my entry in od. not going to repeat it here.
11:38 PM

bored now. boo. hightlight a math notes until left with kinematics n relative velocity. oh man!! im killing myself. haha. decided to stop n haf a rest. been doing that the whole morning lohx. haven wash my shoes yet. oops. ok gonna wash them after this entry. guai me. mwhaha. hmx, wake up that time only me n my dad at home. 9+ bah. mom went to work n bro went to marina sq be helper for the army ppl loh. some running stuff. he ahx... kuai yao ba wo men gei qi si le. he had a fever since fridae? at least. den he dun wan report n get mc. aiyox. always so scared of this n that. nt the first time le. boo. wonder wad he wanna do sia. arghx. but he's ok now, i think. can di xiao me means fine. haha.

now saving up my sms. my classic plan already ard 300sms used up loh. left with the most 60 n its only nearing the middle of the mth. boo. the pod lite one i think oso hao bu dao na li qu. lolx. so im nt smsing anyone these few daex unless its really a necessary. so ppl, paiseh huh. hahax. wait till next mth then. (sae until lotx of ppl like to sms me like dat. =x) but kinda nt used to it. last time is always clicking the keypad. now? hardly ok. boo.
3:37 PM

todae's fri de 13. lolx. nth sway bout todae actually, except when i went home. tok bout dat later. had lit common test todae. unseen prose. whew. thankfully its prose. i will die if its poem ok. boo. quite a straightforward prose i should sae. juz didnt have enough time to write all of my answers. so both qn are like half done? boo. brought shih ying some cooling tea. got mine too. hehex. nice. she said its too sweet. lolx. ok too little water then.

on the bridge walking home saw 198 den faster walk down n take de bus loh. later i saw him in front of me. i was like -.-" wanted to ask kexin n lingzhi can take the next bus nt, but it was too late. boo. nvm. wadeva. lolx. i only haf the share the bus with him for 4 stops only. laladumx~ izit sway or wad? other daex never see his ghost at the bus stop n todae, fridae de 13, i actually saw him with his frenx. fortunately nt with her. if nt i will soooo... duno? bah. enough of him already. shoo.

reach home bathe den went to help ray photocopy a math ws n bind my a math notebk. decided to bind chi notes too since i dun like things to be scattered ard. (irony is dat i always do that to my things at home =x) stood there like for at least 20min? yup. walked ard the shop. sian dao siao. den finally finish. whew. a math was like thinner a little den our current a math tb loh. omg. haha. chi was considered thin then. lol. tired. resting my legs now. listening to perfect10. read the papers that sheik haikel* was sacked for saying too obsence n crude stuff. read wad he said. oh pls. utterly crude n rude. boo to him. he hopes for a second chance. hmx... maybe he will change? nt up to me to sae.
6:16 PM

todae o level results come out le. jeanie gt b3. boo. nvm lah. its quite good compared to many of my frenx. haix. =\ those who intend to retake, all de best k? those who don, jia you for the other subs then. finally noe y they ask all the gers to stay back after flag raising. diao. utterly disgusting, gruesome n gross news man. omg. yucks. but chow very cute. lim lye sim sae all gentlemen pls leave. he last guy mah. den upstairs everyone stare at him. den he faster run. lolx. ok skip this part. too ugghh.

sch was as usual. shih ying made pomelo tea for me. yumx. hehe. tml im gonna make smth for her too. very lame sia us. hahax. ok nvm. its real nice ok. woo. haha. nth much for the lessons. after sch went home with jazreel, kexin, shuping, lingzhi n charlene. lolx. all of us torture charlene. mwhahaha. went home den dozed off on my couch again. wake up went to bathe cook rice den go photocopy kexin a math notebk1. so much cheaper compared to jp de. wah lao. arghx. den bot pen refill, another pen n semi transparent sticky tape. those u stick at the edge of paper. yup. cool. of coz i dun buy for nth lah. wan to stick for the a math. intend to bind my whole a math notes together man. should be darn costly. T.T damn sian now. boo. sigh.
7:55 PM

clarification: i didnt cry todae coz of any guy, esp pat n yx. boo. ok. cried in sch early in the morning? fine? arghx. ppl out there, u jolly well noe u're de bloody reasons ok. arghx. ok nvm. pushing blame. haha. nth lah actually. juz overwhelmed by the continuous accumulating probs. im fine now ok? fel, my liver is fine. nt burnt. =D haha. hmx. damn sian todae. felt like sleeping. but pulled tru. tml all gers gonna stay in assembly ground after flag raising. arghx. wonder wads it for? boo.
9:40 PM

hmx. noe i will haf lecturing notes after this entry is posted. hehex. ok. last nite went for the sec4 dance bbq. met xiuling late coz i went back home to put plaster. turn out only one worked. de other 2 dropped. -.-" nvm lah. den i walk to bus stop liew no bus one. arghx. waited quite long loh. den late. walk there den met up with wang n bing. go pit lohx. they already started. den ate a bit here there lohx. took pics. meisi hair rox ok. punk. woo~ u go ger. haha. too bad didnt take pic with u. later went with ray n bing to get alcoholic drinkx. sian diao. me n bing canot buy. the person wan ic. i sae i dun haf. hahax. ray can loh. arghx. so ask him go in help us buy.

went back to bbq pit den put them in the ice box le lohx. ate n crap a little den everyone together drink le. i bot 33, 5.5%. wenbing bot hooch, 4.7%. derrick they all bot red wine. 13.5%. den we started mixing here n there. at first iz take sips. den later started drinking down the small cup. =x hehex. felt alittle lite le. den noe i abit canot make it. but continued drinking lohx. xin qing bu hao. haha. den after dat set down on the grass patch with daryl, bing, derrick, ray n some 4/10 or 4/11 guy. duno his name. den ray started singing stupid songs. i go whack him. den keep plucking grass n throw at derrick's n daryl's direction. oops. hehex. later den tok cock alot loh. den erm... slapped ppl. hahax. oops. sorrie. den when wan go home den i cried? yup. boo. heng there's bing. later go home loh. walk to the pyramid den bing go climb i there on phone with ppl. den tok until cry again. -.-" hahax. den go home lohx. took cab home with bing. i only gt 6buckx. she has none. den she call her mom lohx. aiyox. so sway. =\ hopefully nth bad happened to her. she told me we promised each other, if either one wans to drink, the other muz pei. she did it. wee. thankx.

go home faster chiong to toilet bathe ahx. canot let mother noe i drink. if nt sure die. bathe finish tok cock on phone until 345 i think den go sleep. 1130 wake up. boo. concluded dat i wasnt drunk. my mind was sober. coz i could tok sense. juz dat i very fierce only. haha. den maybe tired bah. so my voice sounds as though im high. lolx. duno lah. dun need worry ppl. im alrite now. =)
11:42 AM

rotting at home now. ok, so far i wrote my notes for maozedong dat chap. first round revision is done. maozedong chap quite ez for me. juz dat alot of info to memorise. reasons here n there. effects. sheesh. should be ok lah. actually finish mao wanted to start on WWII germany but den duno how to write the notes for the first part den aiyar, forget it. go sleep. didnt want to think bout things too. ben lai canot fall asleep den duno y i found myself sleeping. alarm clock ring so loud duno y i actually went to my bro rm to find it. -.-" stupid me. later off le den watch abit of tv n here i am. boo.

juz waiting for time to pass now. meeting xiu at 645 n bing n wang at 7 at the 176 bus stop. wearing the same shorts as bing. wee. my bro bot lin junjie n jay's cd. woo. but he dun let me listen. sae wad later forget bring to army den cham. -.-" ok lohx. suan le. boo. later gt lin junjie de... wad izit called? smth like te xie bahx. gonna see it. =) sorrie for wad ive said. sorrie for wad ive done. dun bu li wo...pls?
5:18 PM

oh gosh. wad have i jus done?! sigh. bad me. notti me. see lah. play so much. now plae dao ppl sad liaox. how bitchy can i get u tell me? uh huh. sigh. boo. i never learn my lesson eh? *slapx.
11:36 PM

arghx. kinda fed up with od. they happily deleted all my entries n notes when they uploaded it up again. arghx. darn. all my memories were erased. nvm. shall start a new one here then. didnt go out todae. noe many went to watch the fireworks. guess it should be nice? but nahx. dun intend to go. dun wan to see familiar faces. wun it be nice if u can just watch the fireworks from afar alone on a patch of grass, lying on a tree, gazing upwards at the colorful colors in the sky? cool? yup. =) was supposed to study hist todae. but fell asleep after lunch. set alarm at 3.30 but it was too warm dat i continued pigging. =x pig until my mom shouted upstairs announcing that dinner's ready. my dad told me dat my hp kept vibrating. saw it. 1 missed call. 4 sms. lolx. yuan lai xuan called me ask wan go watch fireworks not. oops. haha.

ok. im gonna study at ten. but its like 2 more min to ten? lolx. gonna set this up first k? de most tml morning pia loh. wad a slacker. omg. =\ sheesh. take carex everyone. n happi bdae to shan ying n esther!! as well as daryl. he made it. lolx. =x hiakx.
10:00 PM