came online in the end. boo. bad me. supposed to be mugging chinese okay. left with 3b and 4b. boo. hopefully i can finish both of them today and at least one chapter of ss. if not, i dont know what will happen to my combined humanities again. i wont be so lucky next time. currently on a diet. haha. not such an extreme one. just cutting down on my carbo intake. meaning, less rice and stuff associated with flour. sometimes just cant resist the temptation. boo. been doing crunches and weight lifting lately during my breaks. well, cant find my 1kg weights i have to take my brother's 3.5kg. damn. its so heavy. only can squeeze in time during my break to do such nonsensical stuff. probably stopping for a week when my o's start. first week is packed with exams. mon - chinese p1.2 tues - ss wed - phy eng p1.2 thurs - e math lit p1.2 fri - [forgot =x] im gonna die for lit. gosh! both papers. boo. this is bad news. though im giving up on lit, but at least get a b4 rite? imagine everything is so nice (hopefully) and there pops up a c, or even worse, fail. -.- pray hard i wont fail. dont want to. havent read a single page of my lit notes. grr. chinese is killing me. ah!! y cant they just let us take the paper in june? wont it be so much easier? so unfair to those who took express chi and dont need to worry bout it NOW. argh.

may this be the last day im online until the 9th? thats when i have my one week break. what is wrong with moe? why cant they just spread everything out for everyone and not squeeze everything together? argh. bad people. haha. kinda down with a cold. didnt sleep well last night. *screams. help!! made plans for my holidays. gonna jio my friends to sentosa. be out until wee hours. (as if i can) scream my lungs out at kbox with my usual peeps. most importantly, frequent visits to the gym. haha. been very long since i last worked out okay. its time to get back to shape. kexin's condo has a gym. mwhahaha. but its pretty far. bishan. -.-" shall consider. ah! o level! shoo!
1:05 PM

havent been on the computer for days. thats something good. sigh. when will all these stupid things stop? now its partII. great. now i know, forgive someone who killed you once isnt as easy as i think, especially with a follow-up story. boo. never mind. after 2004, im out of nhss. good bye hatred. good bye turmoil. good bye trouble. well, kind of know some stuff yesterday. shocking news. sigh. love is blind. yes. i definitely agree. boo. this is sad okay. dont know what i can do to help. if my words weigh any bit, things will be so much easier to solve. another thing... not a very glamorous thing to say. i will miss timo when i come back next year. shrugs.

going to bang real hard on my hcl. d0nt want to just get a c5 or c6. its still best to score an a1 or a2. i know i cant get an a1, so im just striving for a 2. that will be very difficult. have to brush up on my words. it pulled me down for prelim. boo. my bro told me that they do see your hcl marks during university. after all, everyone takes 3 A level subjects. if everyone scores straight As, that will be put into consideration. makes sense to me. actually thought studying business in university but my bro discouraged me so. i dont have any working experience, so it wont be easy for me to find a job. probably work on socialogy or psychology. there's such a course in the university. thats so far away. deciding between acjc and sajc. heard so many bad comments on sajc. well, think its very small and old. its the smallest jc okay. are there really bimbos in sajc? acjc... well, its really very nice. but i didnt feel welcomed. still thinking bout it.

went to school today. found out mrs sim took her sec3 pupils out and wont be back until 145. -.- went to find mr teoh instead. he didnt receive weijie's sms. -.- how nice. boo. he was quite busy so he went back to doing his report after his breakfast cum lunch. went home and here i am. im slacking. boo. going to start from sec1. one year a day. really hope to finish on thurs so i can start memorising my social. finished my notes. thankfully. all the best people.
1:50 PM

what an exciting day today is. boo. okay, lets start from the top. went to meet shih ying, patrick and jiawei at clementi's MacDonald's for breakfast. walked to school with derrick too and started off with mrs sim teaching us on source skills. i desperately need to brush up on my source skills. havent been writing for quite a long time. went to find teoh but he was at this "destress" course. -.-" haha. waited for him at 2nd floor's library for very long. then weijie and i went to find him at his table. nowhere to be seen. later he appeared. we conveyed in chinese. haha. very funny okay. =) he replied my mail. i saved it. haha. back to today. he went to the library after a while then we flooded him with math. he went off halfway then mr yap came to teach us math. wow. he is good i tell you. bao dao wei lao. later toeh came back and i told him "wo men kuai er si le hao bu hao." den he ask us y never go to the nearby coffeeshop eat. lazy. hehe. *fast forward. yang lent us her umbrella as it was raining heavily. teoh heard and gave us a lift to ginza for lunch. AHHH!!! *screams. haha. oh yes, we have his HP number!!! AHHH!!! *going crazy.

reached ginza and said goodbye to him. he sounded so fatherly when he said "okay..." for us to get off. oh man... haha. okay, enough. called kexin to gek her. mwhahaha. she sent caps smses to me. mwhahaha. too bad girl. told you to come to school today and you didnt want. laladumx~ =) hiakx. after lunch we 3 took 282. shih ying got off halfway to take 184 home. we both went to clementi ntuc to see some stuff. okay, the bad part starts. saw this guy in black tee and jeans. very significant as everyone else were wearing light colored tee. didnt bother bout him when i saw him twice at ntuc. thought it was a coincidence. walked out of watsons and saw him again. told weijie bout the coincidence then we parted. on my way home before crossing the bridge turne back and saw him again. O.O i got so scared i called weijie. fortunately she hadnt boarded the bus. whew. went to meet her and he was hot on my heels okay. grr. fortunately she met her primary school teacher. he then started walking in circles and disappeared soon after. we went to her house later and my dad fetched me home. whew. thankfully. was really frightened then. face went cold. grr. hate stalkers. boo.
8:16 PM

went to njc open house today. okay, it made me more want to go to sajc. well, dont really like the place. dislike the principal. boo. so what if njc produced many ministers? i always think it depends on the individual. its no big deal. moreover, rjc and hwachong produces more scholars. the principal said something about becoming leaders and scholars. something like that. sheesh. just like what neo said, brainwash. the school is rather old too. as in, from the outside. well, its 7yrs old. that i wont mind, as long as the facilities are workable. western dance was not bad. ballet. hip hop. salsa. blah blah. cool. chinese dance is the top dance i think. my neighbour was previously in it. 10yrs (or at least 9) of cultural dance. enough. boo. the library is very nice. i like the words in it. "where the never-ending journey(or some other word) begins" sigh. there is physics in every science combination. grr. hate it hate it! if only i can replace chemistry with physics. i will be so happy. think the combinations are very rigid. they are basically the same loh. math C, economics and physics. there is only one combination without economics, which is triple science with math C. you must have a background in biology before taking it even. -.- boring. oh ya, saw mr mazalan there. haha. what a coincidence. he transferred there as a malay teacher. wow. =)

didnt go to pjc open house. very far. bu shun lu. shih ying and gang went there. she wasnt very pleased with the place. she said may be she went to njc first so hopes are heightened but when she went to pjc, she commented on the noticeboard not even decorated. bonk said sc sucks. haha. oh man. will rather go to jjc. there are sam, mao, yan and many many more peeps there. wee~ haha. okay okay. enough. pardon me for condemning njc. not my type. perhaps its yours. going to sajc and acjc open house next week. still considering acjc. hope i can get into sajc. im at the border there. sigh. =//

fel:really? gosh. okay, im deaf. haha. nope. may be i was too busy chatting with my classmates. hehe.
bonk:*erm herm. what is the meaning?! yaohui and me very deng dui okay... haha. just kidding.
jeanie:get well soon okay? stupid hives. haha. 7:32 PM

today marks all sec4s' last day in nh. that includes me. come to think of it, kind of sad. fortunately i brought my digi cam. if not, i will definitely regret it. sch started off with us climbing up and down 5 levels because mrs lim forgot to announce all sec4s are to stay back at the parade square. grr. its tiring okay. never mind. went back to class and it was picture taking time. woo. took many many pics. look horrible in almost all. =x oops. hehe. stupid battery. low when it was only half of the day gone. grr. well, have to get the rest of the photos from others then. took pictures with Lamerz, my group, 4nine's 2o5 peeps and many many more. oh ya, took with teoh!! well, i stood beside him at the bridge taking the class pic. =D mwhahaha. shall cut out both of us and put that as my msn pic when i get it. =P kexin also had a chance to sit beside him. weijie doesnt. mwhahaha. too bad girl. =P haha. we even formed 4 9 with ourselves. cool!! =) many more. shall upload it and link it to my blog soon.

thinking bad since sec1. gosh. such a tootster. childish brat. at least now better. *angelic look. haha. just kidding. ups and downs. going to miss many peeps here. another day left of taking pictures will be during our grad high tea. hope my battery wont fail me then. may be i should get another. it gets drained out real fast. boo. the end of sec4 shall mark the day all grievances washed off. forgave someone. well, should say im a kou3 ying4 xin1 luan3 person. so... yup. hating someone is tiring (ripped from jeanie =x oops) so... yeah. cannot believe we are parting so fast. sec4 is definitely a very fast year. i miss those pretty days...
7:01 PM

so unprogressive today. sigh. completed 3 papers plus some unfinished here and there. no chinese. no!! this is bad. woke up at 725 and remembered that i had to sms xiu to tell her i wont be coming to school. pretty late then. oops. hehe. ate cereal with the no-fat milk my brother bought that day at giant. not really cereal. mixed it with koko pops, or what ever you call it. haha. not bad actually. the milk just tastes a little watery, and looks too. not as bad as what my brother told me. then started to get tired. fell back to sleep. typical pig. yup. woke up at 10. went down for some cartoon and was off to get my early lunch. decided to eat early so that i can start early with my schedule. started off with nov2000 paper. grr. its so lengthy. more qns compared to this year's format. boo. got a few blanks here and there for most papers. shall flood teoh tomorrow. mwhahaha.

heard teoh didnt say anything about the disappearing of 23 4niners. grr. never mind. leong didnt come today. =S guess her spine problem is working up again. poor her. boo. going to school tomorrow. taking class pic. =) yay~~ haha.
9:39 PM

gosh. my date looks horrible. haha. what ever. cant be bothered with it. kind of sick in school today. down with a terrible flu. boo. kept sneezing throughout math lesson. 5 times straight? yup. that's bad. feeling heaty too. boo. sick sick sick. argh. hate it. well, not going school tomorrow, which is cleaning-the-classroom day. haha. not really want to avoid it on purpose, but really is sick. half of the class is not going tomorrow too. at least. yup. sure die. definitely get something on thursday from the discipline committee. well, i hope not though. if not, i will have to ask my mom to write a letter for me. quite troublesome. cant be bothered with it too. boo.

resting at home tomorrow. think i shall complete all the papers teoh has given us as well as finish studying chinese, or at least sec3. yup. done with sec1 and 2. slow. boo. never mind. a step at a time. hopefully i can make it. sigh. science practical is coming too. wish me luck people. hope i wont flunk my chem prac like what i did in prelims.

bonk: haha. you bet. i will be crash coursing many jcs too. might be going to yours with my friend. haha. take care. happy playing.
6:42 PM

replies to notes. fel, YES!! they got in. damn it. argh. christopher and jerry are so off-tune okay. cant stand their singing. no!! well, my brother says david is the 3rd worst. so may be sooner or later, he still has to go. haha. but no!! y not them?!?! boo. et, haha. but juz not satisfied with my humanities and science. could have done much better. aiming for a single digit now. but, im still online. yes. argh. how to get motivated? after prelims i've slacked down again. boo. bad me bad me. anonymous, oh. haha. paiseh. pjc? oh. why not jjc? haha. not helping them promote or what ever, but from what i see last year, jjc orientation is real fun. some sort know some peeps inside that are great pals. don't know much about pjc's. bh, dont hit me. =x

slacked the whole day. oh no! argh. im done for. o level is less than a month away and im slacking now while everyone is busy mugging. well, almost? not sure. hopefully i will get started and work on my hcl at latest 9. starting from the bottom. sigh. *prays.
8:23 PM

oh gosh. eugene's nick. -.-" mei lian jian ren. ah!! haha. replies to some notes. fel, yup. same here. i will definitely get attached to the jc i go for my first 3 mths. who won't? okay, may be not all. but at least most? anonymous, 14 huh? oh ok. where you intend to go for 1st 3 mths? acjc? sajc? jjc? pjc? ajc? these are the current jcs i can think of now. haha. congrats anyway. give me a reason why you wont want to tell me your real name. =S

today is as usual. 6 people didnt come to 4nine. most cant be bothered to come. haw yin was down with some skin allegy. hope you get well. =) wenling received her presents today. her birthday is on sunday by the way. janice gave her a buddha bank. haha. 4niners n 2/5 peeps, get it? yup. haha. said happy early birthday to her. stayed back after sch for chinese composition. copied. =x yup. done a similar topic before. end up copying poh yee's fan wen. a little wrong. yang meh printed wrongly. mixed up the pages. so... ya. there are kind of lots errors inside. hope she will be able to decipher the so called 'hidden' meaning inside. haha. *prays.

bombarded with lots of homework. chinese. yes. oh gosh. how am i going to start studying when im flooded with so much homework? teoh gave many e math and a math papers. though it's not compulsory, but i will feel guilty for not doing them. they are a form of revision you know. shall start mugging from tomorrow onwards. if you see me online, means im taking a break. there's sg idol later. cross out christopher and jerry!! boo! i muted when they sang. =x kind of evil. haha. sorrie.
7:30 PM

supposed to type an entry yesterday but apparently, i was on the phone with sam. been real long since i last talk to him on the phone. things are still the same. like old times. =) ok. prelim results are out. not very satisfying. these are my results after moderation. english:b3 e math:a1 a math:a1 science: a2 hcl:b4 combined humans:c5 lit:c5. sigh. my humans... both 5. i failed my history. sigh. got so sad over it. studied real hard for it. end up, a failing mark. out of point. sigh. my chem too. got b4. crap. totally blanked out for that paper. may be i was too complacent? guess so. boo. well, thankfully i did really well for my physics so end up with an a2. whew. a1 will be nicer but still. yup. both math. woo. very happy. haha. english. sign. my argumentative essay. T.T just passed it. sad. my summary helped it all. this is the first time i picked up 14/15 points okay.

so wanted to go to sajc. but my parents happily object. argh. they say when it moves to potong pasir, it will be too far. sigh. i so want to get in there okay... moreover, sajc dance rocks. =) haha. just a little afraid that i cant catch up. yijun jie, help! =x haha. they want me to get into acjc. no! i want sajc! their uniform is so pretty! haha. but yup, i still prefer sajc. acjc... i think its a little too english for me. im somehow neutral you know. half chinese, half english. cant be bothered with my parents. im going to sajc for 1st 3 months and no one can stop me!! mwhahaha.

by the way, yijun jie, i cant access your blog. some password thing is needed. T.T promos are over right? congrats. as well to other sajc j1s, congrats too. =)
7:54 PM

back. amazing that i didnt fall asleep after watching a few cartoons in the morning. i did yesterday you know. =/ anyway, was helping my mom with the ironing while watching "wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai". the tv is just right in front of the ironing board. i sure know how to enjoy life. =x didnt help to iron everything though. got kinda tired. stopped halfway. boo. perhaps i will continue later. after lunch everyone got ready and we went off to turf city. ok, so its nt imm's giant but the one at turf city. well... =x got mixed up. bought lots of things. most importantly, my mattress. haha. yes. its high time i have to change my mattress ok. its as flat as a pancake. (im not so fat so squash it ok. =x) nice design. haha. stars and moons around. blue background. but what ever. i still have to put a cover over it so it doesnt really matter. but still. yup. bought lots of cereals too. and most importantly, NO FAT MILK. mwhahaha. should start drinking that intensively so as to stop my thirst for other yummy stuff.

went for dinner after that. the steamboat thing beside it. quite ok i should say. comparable to that of marina bay. our class outing. yup. but never ever try their soup. its tastes like plain water. ugh. disgusting. full now. bloated. boo. oh yeah, i wore the black polo tee. my mom saw and scolded me for keep buying clothes. again. haha. expected. she commented on the black even. shrugs. what's wrong with black clothes? thats my color okay. never mind.

tomorrow is the day. the day the results be out. oh no. im so afraid now. bet i wont be able to get a good rest tonight. but i think it will stretch to tuesday. they cant possibly give us back everything in a day. they have to explain to us our mistakes you know. im so afraid. sigh. nervous. cant i dont take them? well, i want to know how well i fare and where i went wrong. but, you know, the blow might be too hard for me to take. though i dont deserve to score well. only started to actually study since the holidays. it aint enough. i need luck. i need everything that i can have now. but, the papers are already marked. cant really do much to them right? how ironic can i get? no!! *panick. *screams. hide me!! T.T
7:05 PM

today is a nice day. oh what crap. haha. whole family went to safra tampiness's sakura for lunch. oh my! the food there is great ok. i love the squid sushi the most. yum. might sound a little disgusting to you though. but honestly, it's great. people, this is definitely a place you shouldn't miss out if you love jap food a lot. there aren't only jap food there. there's chinese food too. and most of all, ice cream! oh gosh. i'm getting fat. boo. never mind. it's worth it. haha. there's free flow of drinks too. but the orange juice tastes like vomit, especially after i ate something. forgot what it is. never mind.

after lunch, we went to orchard to change my brother's phone plan. the big big hello building beside HMV. if i didn't see wrong, i saw michelle teo with a long haired girl. most probably zhi ting. but aint sure. wasn't really paying much attention. finally dared to ask my mom about the amount she is willing to sponser. she said dont know. -.-" i asked if i can use my dad's taka voucher she also said dont know. boo. may be if i manage to get "outstanding" results for my prelim, her "dont know" might change to a "know". oh well, we shall see then. *prays.

so sad. first time come to orchard and never walk around heeren and places. how nice right? ok never mind. wont want to walk alone too. my friend called and my brother was making those funny noises, as usual. di xiao xiao. haha. you know shelby? the baby turtle in disney cartoons? yup. that laughter. oh gosh. so embarrassing. haha. reached home and i went to sleep. until like around 8+. was called "sleeping beauty" because of this. beauty. haha. too... how should i say, too nice a word to use on me. "sleeping pig" should be more appropriate. haha.

will be going for a light lunch outside tomorrow and imm giant before proceeding to steamboat at turf city. oh man. i'm getting fatter these days. haha.
9:17 PM

another entry for the day. reply to fel first. oh gosh! you've gotten back e math?! how kind of teoh huh? haha. anyway, how did you fare? should be a distinction right? i remember teoh promising you guys distinctions. well, all the best to you. =) i know you can do it, girl. smiles.

been at home for the whole day. woke up at 8+. haha. a little surprised myself. well, i slept at around 9+ last night. was too tired. turned here and there a little before drifting off to dreamland. woke up and found the whole house very, very quiet. just remembered that today is my brother's first day at work. at some company associated with food. that's all i remember. oops. haha. if im not wrong, it should be from 830 to 630. or is it 930? not sure. but it is ending late. hope he finds it alright there. guess so. he's flexible.

went online. outbreak of terrible news. boo. i hate it. some how, i felt cheated. though, cheated sounds too strong a word to use. but still. better now. i shall see how things go. that's the most i can go. rotted in front of the computer until around 315. practically chatting with my cousin, patrick and my seniors. their promotion exam. all the best people! after that, went to watch disney channel. haha. it's childrens' day, you know. the cartoons today are nice. =) went for my bath and blah blah then.

my second brother is back today from army. he stinks. *pinch nose. haha. he wants to use the computer before bathing, which is now. argh. have to end this entry soon then. shih ying has found her graduation clothes. a top and a skirt. haha. she says she feels weird wearing a skirt. oh well, we are girls after all right? =) didnt think that she will be the first to find among us. haha. oh well, that's nice to know. heard that marie and people commented that they want to see her in that that day. wow. i guess it should look great on her. gosh. i dont know how to ask my mom how much she is willing to sponser me for my clothes and all. kind of guilty to spend a bomb. oh well, i have to open my mouth to her one day. after getting my prelim results or before? hm...
6:02 PM

happi childrens' dae. =x too old for that now. let's tok bout ytd den. after sch went to clementi mac to eat breakfast. only ate mcflurry. me n lingzhi keep changing flavors between ourselves. peppermint n oreo. i should sae peppermint is nicer. u will get sick of oreo if u keep eating it. like the minty flavor. after dat we all went home n i met up with weijie at clementi ctrl station. we were late. she was later. took 106 instead of mrt to orchard. end up shih ying was the earliest when she sms me sae she will be late. so met up with her den we 3 walk rd taka first loh. later kexin n lingzhi reach le den walk to many places. far east. heeren. paragon. blah blah. bot a black polo tee with a tiny angel in front n a black puremilk racer. yup. black. my usual. the pmk tee very ke ai. is a boy n a ger hold hands den gt words ard them saying "milk makes them drunk" or smth like dat. cant remember. but its alittle loose at the top. they tell me is like dat de. muz wash once den it will shrink to like half an inch den ok. good. later gonna soak it in water den go dry it. chen nobody is at home todae. kexin n shih ying spon 5each for my polo tee. my belated bdae pressie. =x thankx ppl. weijie bot a pair of earrings. very nice. cheap too. $1.2o.

we walk until legs wan die le lohx. kexin like one lao ah ma like dat. hand always holding onto shih ying. gao siao. den we see any seats den go sit down. we are actually looking for prom grad nite high tea clothes. went to chaos. saw one chio black tube dress. de bottom is like cut slant down one. another one is a white halter flare(is this how u spell it?) dress. black one costs 79. white one is 89. =S shall forget bout them. my parents definitely wun allow me to buy so ex stuff. moreover, i will be wearing it for like once? i hardly go for any function u noe? wun haf any weddings to attend in the near future too i guess. my cousin wun be getting married so early bah. though she has reached my ideal age of marriage. (age's a secret. =x) went to a shop. forgot the name. gt a flower inside. anywae, saw a halter white dress. very chio on the rack. but sigh. me fei fei one. wear le nt nice. boo. the top is ok. is the lower half of my body. argh. so irritating. it costs 50bucks. nt sure if its an okay price. muz ask my parents see how much they can spon me for grad. should i ask after my prelim results are out or bef? nt sure. gt a bu xiang de yu gan i wun do good. as usual. wadeva. sigh. T.T my dad gt taka voucher. hopefully i can find smth in taka loh. den can use. so wun be much of a burden to my parents too. their hard-earned money. (sounds as though im so filial. oh pls.) mon is coming. sigh. i dun await.
9:29 AM