kids are so cute, especially the one who goes by the name eugene tan. =] went for mothers' day celebration dinner just now. saw my little cousin who is barely 2yrs old. he's so cute!! took many pics of him with my hp. wee... haha. he will run to me when he sees me holding my hp. laladumx~ my bro used it to take many of his pics. some so act shuai. LOL. he's so gonna whack me if he reads this. haha. took pics together too. mwhaha. too bad i cant upload it here. smth's wrong. hms... next time i guess.

i have eugene's pic as my wallpaper now. wee~ he just makes me smile. my motivation in life. wee~ haha. sounds as though he's my bf. too bad. too young for me. =x 10:43 PM

sports day yesterday. wilfred had cramps just before the race. sigh. went to the cafe with rach to cheer for my class. gosh. we were the only ones screaming lah. lol. ok nvm. its a pity we didnt get through the heats. hms.. guess we needed more training and luck. next year then. =] thought i lost my hp cos it wasnt with the rest of the hp. kinda got a little... bahss... but elsa found it. wee. haha. big thanks to my class peeps. guess i really scared them this time. boo.

waited for my class guys to finish kicking soccer to have dinner. wah. so long. everyone was burnt lah. i wasnt. hiaks. bernard was a lobster!! lol. dont know why our class peeps just loves to bully him. reminds me of benson. sigh... oh ya, ker came too. haha. been long since we last saw him. woots. hms... went home after that.

bahs. totally screwed up ytd. sigh. didnt know what i really was doing ytd. over-reacting, says rach. guess so? too stressed up, says sam. guess so? i dont know. sheeeeesssshhhhh... 3:07 PM

michelle has big plans for this week. mwhahaha. went to ntuc just now. was supposed to help my mom search for some sugar crackers but i happened to come upon 'munchini' biscuits! woots. bought the strawberry and choc ones. where is the vanilla one?! bahs. haha. gonna bring a packet to school and secretly munch them during lectures. yay~ no more hunger. haha. but erm... i already opened the strawberry pack and am chomping away. O.O haha. oops. stop!! if not there wont be enough for the class tmr.

supposed to be doing pw or gp now. guess what? just remembered i lent bk my pw notes and i dont have anything to refer to!! ahh~!! bahs. guess i have to start on gp then. essay. "the process of competition is more impt than the result." what crap. bahs. guess im gonna fail this essay man. haha. econ n chem test coming up. grr. i want to sleep!!! 2:49 PM

bahs. i changed my choice partly for you. yet our paths will have a chance of meeting again. damnit. since you've been unhappy here, just go away. go back to where you've come from. stop staying here and indirectly causing misery to me anymore. dont make me change my decision again. this time, i wont. grr.

come to think of it, you're not in the wrong. you didnt do anything to me. i just happen to look around and see you. your presence haunts me time and again. brr... pls, go far far away from me. i still cant get over what had happened long ago. sad case. ok? just go away. shoo~!!!

slept so much today. slept from 11pm to 9am today. after breakfast i slept from 1130am to 330pm. hehe... too tired? dont know. maybe. scv people came to fix up the internet. woo. no longer need to log in for access. laladumx~ cool box i have beside me. did math tut just now. im stuck!! grr. supposed to be searching for gp essay info now. ERM... haha. ok gonna do that later. but my brother wants to use the com later too! ahh!!! lets hope he's willing to move his laptop to his bed later. =]

btw, if you think im talking bout you in the first 2 paragraphs, guess again. it has nothing to do with you, you know who you are. 7:57 PM

shir's confused. rach's confused. elsa's confused. jingx n me? low sugar level. bahs... shir n rach are seriously diabetic. boo... unfair. im fainting. ahhh!! its an inside joke. dont worry if you dont get it. hms... been able to read beyond what's seen and heard. can sense that things are going wrong for people. its worrying. im afraid people close to me will walk on my path. no. i will try my best to prevent anything hurting from happening. yes. i will. i'll try.

realised im quite lame and sadly, bimbotic according to shir n rach. haha. been "bahss...." and "meh..." to peeps recently. haha. so sheepy. michie is a hardworking guai kia. mwhahaha. didnt score well for my econ mcq test. shrugs. okok... was half asleep during the test and didnt really concentrate on answering the qns. my mind drifted off to nh syf. hehe. oops. ah... whatever. getting confused over econ concepts now. shit!! oh ya, s76 has a fav word. scandal. haha. tze kwang started it. bahs... so crappy. lol.

my head's been quite heavy for the whole week. wonder when it started. frequent headaches. sudden gastric pains. bahs... i will not succumb to panadol. no!!! dont worry, im fine. =] i love pe! cant wait for tues n wed to come. but weekend is nice too. finally i can get a good night's sleep. every day is tut or test. no life man. mwhaha. sleep... time to complete all my tut too. and study! chem and econ drq tests are coming up next week. hms... what is on on next friday? i cant remember. ahh!! bad memory. sheesh. 9:47 PM

5days since i last blogged. can tell how busy i really am right? the workload is getting heavier n heavier by the day. though my timetable is quite slack with my longest day, tuesday ending at 345, there are lots of tut to do! esp econ. after every lecture, there is bound to have at least 2 qns and it so happens that after mon's and tues' lecture, i have econ tut on wed and thurs! how am i gonna finish them?! *screams. staying up till wee hours maybe? had to trouble teng to teach me how to ans some lame shit econ qn until mn. -.-'' ok lah, i finish the qn earlier than mn. hehe.

i have 3 new drq qns and its to be gone through tomorrow! grr. oh ya, we will be getting back the econs mcq test tmr. haha. i bet i wont pass. was half asleep during the test. lol. oops. ah... whatever. there is still chem tut. shucks. die. vivian tan is so gonna chop me tmr. but she's nice. i like her. she's a great chem teacher. =] i think so far our teachers are not bad. lyndon chua is ooookkkay lah. but mrs praeman is still the best.

desmond ng is very nice!! we're having PT now for the NAPFA coming up. had 10min free time so we played captains ball. our team was thrashed like 0-6?! haha. oops. then he did some funny actions and eventually joined our team after continuous losing despite his help. the guys went over to snatch the ball from him and almost taupoked him. haha. so funny. you must be there to feel it. oh ya, 76 guys are lame. we were running rounds and they were marching for a short distance lah. marching! omg. haha. i love my class. =] 8:21 PM

bahs. tired. super tired. every day i come home it will be tutorials. if not tests. bahs... i was so busy for the past few days that i didnt even have time to use the com. wasted my precious nights on tuts. grr. what happened to play? finally the weekend has come. gonna sleep after this. will be a long long sleep. sick since yesterday. first it was sore throat. then came flu. now cough. what next? fever? the sequence is always like that lah. must replenish all my energy if not fever will definitely come. bahss... how come im so weak now? always sick. grr. was very nice of jacky to pass me tissue when he heard me sneezing for umpteen times behind him in LT3. lent me his SJI jacket when he had flu too. haha. cool classmate. but was kinda weird walking round with that jacket. SJI you know?

dont have chinese. so i usually spend my free periods alone in the reading room. felt quite uncomfortable at first. but aiyar, got used to it soon. will be doing my own stuff, which are normally homework. shrugs.

modern dance got gold with honours. so happy for them. congrats peeps. your efforts have been paid off. dont slack k? take a good 2 week rest and bang hard on the champs with zhulin! i know both groups can do it. =] kinda shocked that nanyang modern dance got bronze. we all thought nh n ny will have a close fight. shucks. luling cried alittle. her juniors all cried. sigh. imagine nh getting bronze. i will just stun there. 9:40 PM

devastated. depressed. downcast. heartbroken. melancholy. saddened. in despair. whatever words i can think of to describe my feelings now. sigh. really really very sad now. *sobs. why? why didnt they get gold with honours? why? why is it only gold and nothing more than that? do those freaking judges know how much effort they've put in? we can see that with such standard, they should have gotten gold with honours easily. sam said its the judges' preferences. sucks lah. as judges, dont you understand what they're dancing? movements are so clear cut. the girls are so demure inside. the guys are so man lah. what went wrong?! nothing!! freako judges. grr. heard many cried in the hall. sigh. if i went back, i guess i should be crying with them now. first time in nh history... we lost to *erm herm*. wah lao~!!! kns. this cant be happening!! please tell me im dreaming. please?

zulin peeps, dont be sad anymore k? im as sad as you guys lah. been with you guys since the beginning of this year. i know you guys have done well. so does mr loh. dont worry. there is still the championship k? win champ again for us! for you! for everyone! we all know you guys can do it. dry those tears and go all out for it ok?! modern peeps, tomorrow is the judgement day. i guess you guys will feel that everyone is putting all the hope on you guys to get gold with honours. dont take that as stress k? pls dont. take it as an encouragement, that everyone is behind you guys, cheering you people on. we all know you guys can do it. OI OI OI!!!

bahs. tearing from within. sigh. there is still tomorrow. gonna rush back to nh. gotta change to black top and pants. gosh. hope i will be of help to them, instead of trouble, like blocking their way and stuff. damnit. sch ends at 215 with lyndon chua's econ test. grr. hopefully the test wont end late so i can leave on time, or betta, earlier. was chanting "gold with honours" to myself on the way home. bahss... tomorrow! woo! all the best modern peeps! beat *erm herm*!!! woo!! boost morale!! 6:12 PM

ahh!! sorrie sorrie. oops. that "gold with honours" line was actually meant for the both dances. hehe. sorrie. didnt type clearly. nhds shall get 2 gold with honours this year!! woo! dont disappoint us k? =]

woke up at 9+ yesterday. sleepy. so didnt go nh. hehe. oops. no news bout og outing too. so decided to rot at home. bahs... after lunch, went to do a little of my overdue chem tut. jie called. jioed me out to jp. so ya, went out loh. bought stationary. haha. stupid right? wanted to get the black version of sam's hp pouch but sold out. T.T the stock's coming on wed. just gotta wait then. anyway, i also didnt have enough money. so erm.. hehe. chatted quite alot. updated each other with many many things. realised both of us are somehow facing the same problems. haha. oh man. is this good or bad? hms...

regret passing my cousin all my a math notebooks. now i cant do math induction! forgot all my trigo differentiation le. bahs. shall get it back from him on mon i guess. must remember to tell him later. cant believe im so guai. im actually done with half of tut6. mwhahaha. forgot whats econ hw. so many qns. -.-'' sheesh. chem has tut too. ah!! *screams.

jc is really draining my money dry ok and its getting worse as the days go by. now we have to buy tys. tb wise... wonder when will the order sheet come. sajc notes cmi sia. alot of things are not inside. grr. which means i will have to spend a bomb on tb. shrugs. notes are also so ex! hopefully my mom wont think that im taking alot of extra money for buying so called 'useless' things. 10:43 AM

wee. wearing chingay2002 tee now. its so huge. size 42, large. LOL. brings back memories. me in total pink then. haha. been really tired and listless these days in sch. can always catch me yawning and stuff. bahs. not enough sleep? hms... don't know. all my lectures yesterday were all in LT3. freezing. so want our class sweater to be done asap so i can proudly wear it and cuddled by s76's love. woo. haha ok whatever. that line seems weird, esp the last part. hms.. trigo1's killing me. so many formulae to memorise. O.O econs. i prefer 1st 3 mths lessons. bahs. i miss mrs prehman!! shucks. if im back to s64, i will get to listen to her lectures lah. she just makes the lectures so enjoyable and makes econs so easy to learn. bahs. ok back to reality. im in s76 and im sadly lyndon chua's student. shrugs. ok. make do with what i have then.

ponned chi talk accidentally. went to get my loy fatt tee with weijing. co-op too packed so erm when i bought it, it was already past the time. tot jeff was going so i asked him to help me get the chi form. but he didnt! he was playing bball in the hall!! *screams. wonder how am i gonna get hold of one of those forms. hms... hope ji wen will be nice to me. hiaks. ponned house talk too. not interested in house council. went back nh dance. abit sian at first coz i didnt have anything to do. but got betta after that. the dances are great man. i know they can do it on 12 n 13. bet i will be screaming my head off when i get the results for the cultural group. mwhaha. gold with honours k?! woo!! 11:42 AM

ahh!! i hate tomorrow's timetable! damn it. i have lectures from 745 to 1215 straight. which means i dont have anytime for a snack or smth! worse still, i just realised we have cs. some stupid 1min speech bout yourself thingy. bahs. crap. 1min you know?! ahh... there is nothing to talk bout myself lah. "im michelle and im dumb." full stop. period. see?!! cs is smacked right in between some lecture and phy lecture. i think its econs. wah lao~!! im dead lah. im so so so dead. someone, help me!! *screams.

mr lyndon chua, if you happen to know bout this paragraph in my blog, I HATE YOU! "pls discuss bout it after lecture. you can write your qn down on your notes first and ask your friends later." grr. crap. adds so many comments even. so noisy! so distracting! *chop chop* most likely s76 gonna tio him for econ. kns!! i hate him!!! im so gonna fail econ. no!!! i want my 6As!!! 8:43 PM

weijie, im sorry. i failed to dig. somehow i cant recall what im digging for. what was it again? i dont know. dont wish to know. perhaps ive dug too deep. so im stuck in this bottomless pit. everytime i raise my hand and foot to climb, i slip and fall back. perhaps if i were you, brave enough to take that big step, rejecting your successful appeal to sajc, gone to somewhere else too, things will be different now. perhaps a change of environment is a good thing afterall. perhaps i really made the wrong choice to stay. perhaps. perhaps. i will shove more sand into my pit, so that i can step on them, and pray that one day, the amount of sand i've shoved in is enough for me to take the big step out. i'll try. i'll try.

today is physic day. 2hours of phy straight and a break of 2hours before another hour of phy again. followed by econ. people sitting beside me have the tendency to fall asleep. bahs. more or less understood what's taught so far. not having any negative feelings bout that sub. that's good. my econ tutor will most likely be lyndon chua. i can officially announce that i will not score well for my econs promos. he sucks as an econ teacher. wonder why he is still here. if only im smart enough. then i wont need to rely on him. sadly, im not. im a dumb 'blonde' remember? must psycho myself : i love physics. i love chemistry. i love econs. i love math c. 10:00 PM

newcomers into the class. some girl called qianling and some guy called... erm... haha. ok i dont even know who he is. bahs... qianling's not taking CLAO~~ wee. means there will be 8 people not taking in s76. mwhahaha. more companions. everyone's in sa uni today. well, almost. saw some still in their sec sch uni. probably they ordered the custom made skirts. sa uni rocks. hiaks. but i hope they wont catch my uni. my top is draw string type lah. no! i will never remove it! no! bahs. saw ms K and me n weijing were like O.O whew. she didnt catch our uni. hiaks. been rotting in school the whole day. after discipline talk which ended like around 845, i had to rot in school until 315 for my phy lecture. thought of leaving school. so nice to sleep. but decided to stay on. whew. thankfully i did. if not i would have wasted so much time in school waiting for nothing. physics is fine. can cope. for now. haha. i heard kinematics is like, woohoo. should be goners by then.

bball match at 5. sajc vs nyjc. we won. not surprising. 76 vs 37. wee~ haha. caron was like, aiyar 4 marks more only. haha. took 51 home for the first time from sajc with xiuli. chatted quite alot. haha. home sweet home then. laladums~ tomorrow is like 3 phy lectures lah! one after the other. siao diao. tomorrow will be touching on kinematics le. woo. hope i wont go haywire. 8:52 PM

wake up michelle. wake up. stop living in the past. dont let the past haunt you any longer. people in SAJC are not like those you've met before. stop restricting yourself from what you really are. be free. what they've said are right. since its the past, it's passed. dont dwell in it anymore. go. just go. to wherever you feel like to. 8:47 AM

induction programme and orientation o2 were great. woo. simply love the past 4 days. *screams. haha. i love OG29. i love 05S76. i miss OG28. i miss 05S64. sometimes i wish i can be like in both og and cg at the same time. so great rite? all ur peeps will be there to cheer and get high together. sigh. eunice, daniel, vivian, weijie, trevor, benjamin, xinyi, kerwin and many others came back for orientation. woo. gave the girls each a great big hug. sigh. i miss EICR. we havent have an official outing yet! was reading teng and jiam's shout out today. saw our og pic. miss everyone there. esp those who arent in sajc anymore. haix. very sad for xinyi, kerwin n siling. their appeal failed. but thankfully xinyi loves pjc. hope kerwin and siling can get used to mjc and yjc soon. once an OG28 member, always an OG28 member k ker? oh ya, during disco dancing, we girls gave teng and jeff a big hug. haha. i gave ker a big hug too. sigh. gonna miss him loads.

my class is so enthu. haha. and im so not. ok lah i am. im just not as active as lulin, elsa and shir. so ya, im always at the back. hehe. so sorrie. but ya, great being with my class. my class guys are so cool. so are my class girls. laladumx~ we are so fun!! i think the whole of j1 knows how enthu my class is by now. we kept cheering. haha. im officially 05S76's treasurer, along with melissa. woo. but erm... wonder if we can have 2 treasurers. well, we shall decide later. my ct is ji wen lao shi!! he's very nice. haha. we are so lucky to have him. =]

shall update more bout my class and stuff another time. went back to dance today. pang seh my cg coz of that. sigh. thought i could join them for dinner after dance but they ate early and just stoned in yoshinoya playing cards so i didnt go back. shrugs. will try to make time for them. dance is doing quite well now but they're not as high as that day. boo. jia you peeps! syf is coming! i have faith in you guys! woo~~ 9:06 PM