today is unproductive. slept for 13 whole hours. woohoo. compensate for the loss of sleep for the whole week. thank goodness my dad didnt wake me up at 9 again like other weekends. made it clear to him i desperately need my sleep and im not eating breakfast. (:

anw, didnt study. supposed to be at the library mugging but we cant seem to find an empty table! yup. ended up eating and exploring the year book. wow. there are really ALOT of seniors that i've never seen before. must be indulging in my own world last year. hehe.

oh wow. looks like the virus has spreaded. quite far i should say. bitching and gossiping. OH WELL. numb bout it. dont wish to comment anything bout it anymore. nth much to think bout too. so yup. mouth's shut. (:



i got my ring back! woots. 11:23 PM

no.1 flew off to hokkaido last night at ard 11. ): back on wed and now he's in japan. worse, its below 20 over there. brr. a thick leather jacket. a huge woollen one. WOW. freaking heavy. bahs.. reminds me of what no.2's head told him in army when he was in taiwan. "ba zhang." LOL. anw, he'll be back on sunday. one week! squirms.

log comm shopping was very fun! some of us were lagging behind cos we were busy talking. OOPS. sorry. hehe. and yup, apart from pei pei and sher, all of us got "lost" and went straight to little india instead. hehe. but oh well. division of labour is more efficient. (: i think we set off at like ard.. 3+? yup. bought everything and headed back at 5+. wow.

ooh! seng siong sells CHEAP stuff. superbly cheap. haha. all of us felt soooo auntie-ish back there. were like "WAH SO CHEAP!" and "EH TAKE THIS ONE! CHEAPER!" omgosh.. haha. but it was fun. the sales people there were very polite and helpful too. hiaks. the girls took cab back with all the logistics while the poor guys took a bus back. HEHE.

danceworks is today. hms... wonder what time it starts. should be ard now? i guess. but anw, all the best to SAJC DANCE SOCIETY! may you guys clinch the winning title again. (: 2:12 PM

hms. should i consider taking the mrt instead? xiuz says her dad drives past my house every morning to harbourfront mrt. hiaks. but i still love long bus rides where i listen to 98.7fm "muttons in the morning" till i doze off and wake up when rach crashes her ass next to me. like BOOM! (wahahaha.) but anw, ahh.. cant stand waking up at 515 every morning! zombified. BAHS.. tired tired tired. glad i managed to pay attention during chem lect and absorbed everything (well, i hope) ms tan said. woohoo. chem equilibria is damn easy. laladums..

i miss sam and gang! ): haha. i dont know why. went to sam's blog to look out for any replies and i was like "HMS, we should have another outing again." canot canot! there's chem test on thurs and chem spa on fri. council on wed. oh, and log comm on fri. BAHS.. my friday is burned. again. T.T

ooo... shouldnt drink milo in the morning anymore. bus rides are getting jerky. makes me wanna puke. BLEAH. ): 6:52 PM

tmr's timetable sucks. big time. due to e-learning for econs, econs tut has been cancelled for the week. assignment is thus found on moodle. but thats not the point im here to put across. lect from 745 to 945 and its break time all the way till 315 for an hour of pe. like AHH... and i have log comm at 430. 15min break. rarrhh.. ok. its camping in the library tmr. strictly no sleeping for ms tan here. (ok, maybe a short nap in btw here and there. giggles.)

exhausted from all the studying. finished kinetics tut. ooh! first time i finished a tut. OOPS. but anw, ya. im so proud of myself. thou im still stuck at macro. dont know where ive stopped. as in for the notes. but WHO CARES? ltj says the notes are useless. BE GONE FILTHY OLD NOTES! mwhahaha.

finished my cookies. rach, seriously i'll just grow fat. luckily i have my bro to join in the happiness. haha. yes! there's pe tmr. i think its the 5 items. not really a trial. but just to see where we are weak in. hms. inclined! shuttle run? BAHS..

oh oh! no.2 just passed his driving! and my dad allows him to drive his car after he pastes the plate on. woohoo! if only he can send me to sch every day. hiaks. then i dont need to wake up so early. my precious sleeeeeeep!

oh oh! and no.1 is now at dubai. flew off on friday. i think. coming back only on wed. poor him. has a meeting after his plane touches down. -.-" damnit. with his capabilities, if not for the bond, he'd been earning big bucks already. oh well. maybe i should think of it this way, the additional income he should be earning has gone to paying for his studies over at cornell. hms. investment. but anw, he's flying off again next weekend. to where? i forgot. but AGAIN! wah.. i miss him now. ): but looking on the bright side, i get to use his bed and his room! yes. a room to myself. and the best part is, his room has the com and tv! mwhahaha. enjoyment. (: 10:59 PM

oh oh! how can i miss them out? ok. this is my NEW and UPDATED wishlist. enjoy. (:

Wishlist

• The Body Shop Lip Prism Shade 02 Blush -- $21.90 $12.90
• Converse Chuck Taylor Dark Grey with Pink Lining Sneakers -- $49.90
• White Hairband -- Yet to be Sourced
• Zio Small Thin Black Rectangular Spectacle Frames -- $85.00
• Samsung D600-C -- $300⁺⁺ w plan

yup. that should be all. i hope. waiting for my plan to end. think it'll be like august or september? by that time HOPEFULLY the price of D600-C have dropped to ard.. 100 to 200⁺⁺? anw, those items are more of wants than needs. can take my time to save up. hehe. dont know bout my glasses. i want! then i'll start wearing them to sch, esp during the exam period. makes me feel more intellectual. HEHE.

SHUPS! i want that 50% off! reply me asap! haha. laladums.. jie, lets get them. (jingx, get too!)mwhahahaha. oh. and i went to outfitter girls. new shirts now rite?! haha. pretty! shall take a betta look next time. (: enjoy your new job!

reading econs. hms, the book i borrowed doesnt follow the sequence sajc teaches. bahs.. ok, maybe it does. just that i didnt read my macro notes detailedly enough. haha. but anyhows, IVE READ IT. and thats all that matters. (: 7:12 PM

Wishlist

• The Body Shop Lip Prism Shade 02 Blush -- $21.90 $12.90
• Converse Chuck Taylor Dark Grey with Pink Lining Sneakers -- $49.90
• White Hairband -- Yet to be Sourced

went to body shop today and my eyes were set on that lip prism lip gloss! *screams! they're soooo pretty! it changes your lip color according to the different angles of reflection of light. COOL RITE? ahh.. lol. i WILL get my hands on them soon. mwhahaha.

oh yes. shopping spree in msia tmr is cancelled! damnit. my mom's collegue is sick. so yup. bahs.. oh well. heard converse shoes there are cheaper. so yup. either i get that pair ive listed above or im getting a velcro one. i think velcro shoes are cute. hiaks. reminds me of those good old childhood days where i enjoy sticking and resticking the velcro on my shoes. HEHE. itchy fingers.

need to get a new white hairband! been whining for months bout it. sherlynn! hms.. i should visit the shop where i got my current hairband at harbourfront soon. they sell a wide variety of them. woohoo..

now for some non-shopping stuff. michelle is studying! for the first time in so many years, she has finally decided to settle down and borrowed an econs reference book from her sch library to read at home! wow. ok. yes. you're shocked rite? im too. hehe. block test is coming up in a mth's time.

Ideal Grades

• Chemistry - C
• Economics - D
• Mathematics - A
• General Paper - B4

cannot disappoint ms tan. she has put in so much effort for me and i think getting a C is the best way to repay her kindness. like wow. despite her busy schedule and tiredness, she taught me NMR and i finally understood what has been going on for weeks. where can you find such a teacher? and mr lee. we chat (yes and i do mean chat) as though we are friends. well. great advices from him and he's been a great math tutor. (teoh too. *chuckles.) his understanding for students is undeniable. must score well! econs. haha. well, if i cant score well, then i should seriously think twice bout getting into business admin in SMU already. GP too. how can i clinch a business without first getting my point across to my client? (wow, i sound like some boss. mwhahaha.)

so yes. one month more. its time to start mugging. As are coming. AHH.. after O2 has ended, mugger mode shall officially be on.

11:44 PM

well, apart from all the whining and complaining to my beloved dinner mates and councillors on vday, the day ended off with quite an ok tone. thou it was walking ard orchard for dunno-how-many times. LOL. post vday days are even better. hiaks.

i love cookies! _{famous amos, mrs field and homeBAKED.} wee! haha. (:

oohh... eating too much Macs is highly dangerous. AHHHHHHH... hehe. laladums..

i keep missing desperate housewives. hur. WILL NOT MISS NEXT WEEK'S! i hope. its such a great show! thou its kinda, erm, sexual. LOL. but oh well. im a good girl. 8:34 PM

wow. ok. getting sick in the middle of the week is NOT A GOOD IDEA. esp when you've not recovered fully. haha. couldnt speak properly cos of my bad throat and cough and yup, kinda messed up stuff. hms.. bad girl. wahahaha.

anw, dry run has ended. well, more or less yup. ran quite smoothly with a lil hiccups ard. like MY station. hoho. the wind almost blew me and the netball post down. HAHA. it was hilarious. was screaming at the top of my voice 'yong hweeeeeeeeeeeee!!!' and YES, he came in time. hehe. dry run's tiring. but im glad i went in the end. thou my shoes are probably STILL soaked. but yup. its fun.

contemplating whether i should go for og steamboat later. havent done ANY hw yet. like OH SHIT! and i still have ironing to do. HMS.. ok. i think i should go do my ironing first. and talk bout the rest later then. 4:18 PM

Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the King's horses,
and all the King's men,
Couldnt put Humpty Dumpty together again!




2^1/2 days of mc. i feel like humpty dumpty. wobbly all over. bahss.. someone called my mom to check on me. ya. as if im faking my sickness. and you had the nerve to ask me where im sick. like duh, cant u see how pale i was? blind as a bat. boo... but i have nth to hide. so yup.

returning to sch tmr. yippy! i think the lecturers have started on macro. eeks! ok. shall read up later if not i'll be damn blur. missed math test. dont know if im allowed to take it. having gp test tmr. -.- sian.. dry run tmr too. until 9pm. guess i wont be participating. just be there to see how the whole thing runs. oh teachers, please believe me. do i have a oh-im-lying face? squirrrrmmmsss.

peeps, thanks for all your concern ya? im getting betta. much betta. (: thank you!








side track a lil. hms. smth ironic. have you encountered people who do things that contradict what they claim to believe? i see it everytime. hms. cancel that. most of the time? sometimes? but at least a few times ya? anw, thats not the point. maybe its just me. i started off with the wrong mindset, which ultimately changed the way i perceive things. am i maligning anyone? hms. but some things can be easily explained. no excuses.

using "joy" as an alibi? been there, done that. many can see through it ya? it aint the real thing. boo.. 1:58 PM

my bro and his big ugly mouth.

[a few days ago]



[yesterday]

even the strongest will not survive the deadly viruses. bahsss... not going sch again tmr. mc is up till today. but still quite weak. so dearest mom has allowed me to extend it with a parent's letter. (: but damnit. im missing out on alot of stuff. BAHSS.. 11:45 PM

small bruise on my index finger. hehe. minor injuries are inevitable in games, especially when you're so into it. some purple which turned to reddish pink can be seen at the edge. oh well. i still love pe lessons with desmond ng and s76. (:

politics. cant stand. yuck. utterly disgusting. yet it is part and parcel of life. but, accepting it as it is aint the way im wanna and gonna choose to live this short life of mine. this reminds me of smth i learnt during art lessons during my lower sec days. "turn every mistake into a design." guess this applies to life too.

im happy with the way things are now. its not the time where i make my presence known and voice out my concern. i dont wish to talk bout it anymore. other stuff shall have to wait.

"happily ever after" only appears in fairy tales yup? so im not pinning high hopes on anything. at least for now. (uh no, its not those prince and princess getting married thingy.) 9:42 PM

after the imm trip with jie ytd, im clearer on how my room should look like. oh btw, im renovating my house real soon, along with my new neighbour. (: shall be moving to somewhere down the street to stay for the time being. my parents would like to see how the new house is coming as renovation progresses. my house's theme shall be zen. the color combination shall be brown, black and beige. hiaks. still thinking on how to decorate my room. got this urge to get an art work cum clock and put it above my bed. wahaha. but anw, it will be at least 9mths from now before its ready.

a beautiful misunderstanding. nth to say here. but just a side note: (oh no im sinful)


please get your filthy paws OFF my friends. you have yours. and if you dont mind, mind your own f-ing business and stay out of mine. thanks for all the pain and agony you've bestowed upon me for months and counting. its more than enough. you can stop now. thank you.
10:03 PM

time passes quickly while chatting with someone having common interests with you walking all the way from 6th ave to island creamery. the route seems shorter too. perhaps, time shouldnt be measured by minutes and seconds. but by how long it seems to drag or how short it can get, isnt it?

time. something which im desperately finding. outstretched again. is everything worth me doing? hms.. at least thats smth worth pondering over.

time is the period where you can make a difference in someone's mind. like lending a helping hand. leaving a first impression. or changing it. hms, i sure dont wish to be remembered in that way. why did i hold back? statual? i guess so. sigh. the inequality in life. a misery not worth living for.

off to meet jie in a few minutes time. hope i wont be late. supposed to change and zoom off. but hehe. so, as some of you can guess by now, im not going.

i guess, i dont know how to react when im faced with certain matters. call me a scaredy cat. or a whimp. im just being me. but i think, ive been avoiding for far too long. is 2 years long enough? gotten too used to not think of it. that i cant put my foot into it anymore. HMS.. its time for a change. 6:04 PM

hms, sometimes i'll wonder. are things really that bad? perhaps i should step out and look at it as a whole. as a third party. (thou sometimes im really am one, but ya.) anw, so yup. ive tried. time and again. like, its betta to have a friend than a foe rite? ok foe is not very appropriate here but hms, u get what i mean.

but now. after much thought and consideration, ive decided. why should i? like, is there any difference? there are so many loopholes that i cant explain. i dont wish to think to the negative side. perhaps im too narrow-minded. to the extent of only thinking bout mean points to counter-argue everything. is there any point?

i think its time. time to see the truth. yes. im seeing it. yes, i know. you're just a pathetic lonely soul.

i wash my hands off everything. its none of my business anyway, rite? why should i be so bothered? so disturbed by whats happening behind my back? like so? just. dont want to see you both anymore. go away, if you please. 10:41 PM