im peeling. ahh! its like, only at my shoulders! -screams. haha. now its as though ive grown tiny lil spots ard my shoulder area. bahh.. but oh well. at least i bothered to apply body lotion. if not my skin will be so dry like some old witch. LOL. shoo burn shoo!

HAPPY 18^TH BIRTHDAY AH LEOW! (:

argh, leow actually asked "who's this?" when i smsed him the bday msg. -.- groans.. haha. hey dude, hope you enjoy the day yup?

pe on the first day of sch. woohoo! its games again. had captains ball as a class using a rugby ball. crap, do you know how difficult it is to play with that ball? it bounces at directions you least expect. haha. but it was fun. after that it was captain's ball bball-style with the girls. mwhahaha. cool yea? guess everyone's shirt was drenched of sweat after the session.

papers are not back yet. ms tan gave us some talk bout our grades. how demoralising. bahh.. bt2 coming up real soon. time to get prepared i guess yup? ): 7:02 PM

a gentleman puts his right hand out and hides his left behind his back. bending down and with a smile, "after you."

sometimes i wonder, is it worthwhile playing safe? staying in my comfort zone. allow the testimon to be made bef anything else.

perhaps im losing more than what i can bear. perhaps. 4:42 PM

never had a class outing since aeons. thats why ytd's sentosa trip was AWESOME! as usual, we have our 'adopted kids' joining us too. hms, is it just our class or what? there're always people joining our class activities, be them in sch or outside sch. doesnt that say smth bout my classmates? (: haha. ok enough praising. the time to meet was 930 but i was 10min late. oops. but there were people who were even later. mwhahaha. anw, headed off to siloso beach. the first half of the day was quite dead, with so few people ard the beach besides us. but soon it got better, esp during the trip to 7-11. wahahaha.

was a great afternoon spent. am glad most of us came. along with their friends. thou im freaking BURNT now. esp at my shoulders. its damn red lah! comparable to the pic berd posted bout his burnt back. haha. shit! damn painful! ah.. lets hope the body lotion works. ):

sam's bbq after that. woohoo! guess the highlight was towards the end after the cake cutting. esp when we, or rather they, started talking bout alcohol. which being the most alcoholic and killer in clubs. graveward. waterfall. flaming lamborghini. etc. oh oh! and they lighted the left over vodka. WOW. its so pretty! wont have a chance to see it anytime soon. oh, and we toasted marshmellows by covering it with vodka and putting it on flames. woohoo! nice taste. but oh well. its fun seeing them playing cai-quan and tar-ing up like a mouthful of alcohol with water chestnut drink or coke. yes, u didnt see wrong. its water chestnut. LOL. but accordinging to zhenyu, it tastes great. haha.

and the convey btw zixiang and zhongyi. LOL. its utterly stupid. im starting to doubt zixiang's memory already. haha. but yup, the nite was great. pays to stay out till 330. (: wee! 3:20 PM

zhongyi: thats why! time is passing too fast. like ZOOM. and exams are here. argh..

many jcs dont even have any tests after this hols. what i see every day on my way home are people going to town and stuff. like enjoying their life out there. me? lib. home. lib. home. HOHO. what a life man. this is how we should spend our hols rite? thats why my ex-principals always say during assembly. "pls dont waste your hols away. revise." like duh, who on earth will be so motivated to revise when the hols are here?! perhaps a teeny weeny minority. hols aint called hols for nth k.

perhaps thats why dear sa made all the tests after every official hols. its a good way to make students study, i agree. but freak! after tests will be sch again. the usual routine. learning new topics. mini tests. no break at all. crap. no wonder anson pang claims jc is more stressful than uni. jc's stress is continuous while uni's stress is in phases. HMS..

i think there is seriously smth wrong with me. taught jeff how to do DE, but when i tried to do the same qns just now, I CANT. why why why?!! -.- this is annoying. im dumb. i have stm. and i hate it. rrrr... 6:46 PM

studying is depressing, dont you think so? bloody keynesian theory. there is like so much for me to absorb, yet my brain is too small to contain everything. wah lao! i understand, i really do. but when you give me some blank piece of paper and ask me to write them all down, i'll just freeze. !!!! kill me man.

why arent i born to be someone who can pick things up quickly? why am i always a slow learner, a late bloomer? WHY WHY WHY?! hur..

all my revision will be left halfdone. or maybe even undone. why am i still wasting my time studying when i know nth will come out from me and i'll just end up staring at the qn paper? hms.. good qn. perhaps i should just cast everything aside and resign to fate. woohooo..

cant wait for my 5days hols after bt1. just wish time can just stop there. then i wont need to face up to reality when i get back my papers. ): im actually getting so stressed up now. imagine my As and prelims. woohoooooo.... its gonna be hell. 12:08 AM

ok. im NOT supposed to be online. but anyhow, i am. what am i saying? UH.. ok nvm. studying is madness. seriously. i hope promos doesnt repeat itself. ): econs. keynesian theory. ok. now i know why i cant pronounce keynes's name properly. its K-nes, not keynes, as in kings. yup. math, bahs... chem?! well, at least i know what im doing when i do my tys. like better than last year.

since elsa has not been with us studying recently, ive been the target. ): fish, fish and more fish. elsa! come back! LOL.

hms, should i go to woodlands lib to mug tmr? je library is not user friendly. not cos of the way its built. but the people. yuck. yuck yuck yuck. the place doesnt belong to you guys all day long. neither do your books have the right to occupy a person's place. bah.. shir, we should consider mugging tgt tmr there. though its freaking far. ): i miss sch lib. darn. 7:59 PM

dont mind the previous entry. it was a sudden burst of frustration. like RARRRRHHHH... [end]. hehe. anw, its the mugging season for jc2s now. i love SAJC library. cos its never too packed to squeeze me in. (: unlike the one at JE. its always packed. not with people, but chairs taken up by bags, bags and more bags. like ugh. isnt there something called sharing? worse, i see my juniors sleeping on the table, when i could have used it for better reasons. what a sight.

oh well. in the mean time, i'll mia for a week till wednesday. 7days more and im FREE! whew. then, i'll have time to meet up with my old friends. (: laladums... and of cos mommy! who's going into army real soon. cant imagine him bald. and fighting for our custody. LOL. inside joke.

good luck and all the best to all jc2s and poly peeps, enjoy your long awaited hols! 8:06 PM

• you dont question my time management and attitude towards studies when ive studied till 3am, slept for 6h and studied after breakfast and before lunch.


• you dont make a stand when you dont know how much effort ive put in this time.


• you dont scold me for 'wasting' my time and ask me to go out with you after that.


• you dont go around asking people whether im together with daniel when there is nothing going on between us.


• you dont chat with others just to find out more bout things that you wish to know.


• you dont bug others to tell you things that you think you cant live without.


• you dont go to any extent to get what you want, even if it means to push people to their limits.


• you dont get close to people just to achieve your goal.


• you dont do things to make others think you're wanted.


• you dont manipulate your friends to get what you want.


• you dont act as though you care when you actually only wanted to find out more.


• you dont try to spoil my friendship by questioning my whereabouts when you hella know i simply cant squeeze in time to go for a birthday celebration.


• you dont gain attention by making others pity you.


• you dont gain pity by telling how others have been mistreating you when we have not.


• you dont go around publicising my life to others when what you've said aint entirely true.


• you dont tell everyone bout your sad life when you shouldnt feel proud of it.


• you dont push the blame onto others when you have a part to play.


• you dont act as though you're trying to salvage our friendship yet backstab me in the back.


• you dont try to make me spell out your name.


• you dont take away things that belong to me.


• you dont push me to my limit.


• you dont make me scream at your f-ing face.


• you dont make me tear down your mask.


• you dont scold others for faking when you're just a doll in disguise.

YOU DONT.

4:11 PM

just came back from wine and dine. well, the wines are OK.. 4 different types of wine were served. 3 red 1 white. but i only liked one. anw, the serving was kinda odd. normally, people will serve white wine with white meat and red wine with red meat. apparently, they served FISH (white meat) with RED WINE. like twice. i mean white meat. i think they're seriously short of manpower. and the waitresses there are weird. they dont serve from the last table assigned but the first. yet when they clear, they go from the back. HMS..

but oh well. had fun. alot of working adults were there. with us, we already had 3 retired teachers, 2 from peitong pri and 1 from jintai pri. and what a small world. we're actually linked. like some bro's sister-in-law's family. blah blah. didnt pay much attention.

many were drunk by the end of the function. there was alot of tango and cha cha going on. on stage and off stage. loads of singing. drinking of cos. wow. its damn funny lah! should've seen the way they dance. LOL. damn high. and there's this guy who goes ard saluting people. no.2 tells me its an SAF thing. LOL. oh well. i wont understand that. while i was walking out, one even approached me to ask for wine. O.O haha.

see. adults getting drunk. and they say kids like us shouldnt drink. LOL. 12:05 AM

orientation2 is OVER! well, i wont say yay or anything. but i really love OG32! they're bunch of great people who're always full of shit. im so sorry for being a lousy OGL. hope you guys still enjoyed orientation no matter what. all the best to all of you! I LOVE YOU ALL! (:

o2 is definitely much better than o1, in terms of all the glitches and hiccups. all the experience we gained from o1. though many j1s would prefer o1. those 2 days felt like hell. waking up early. running to the sc cos we're like 1min late. jumping ard to get my OG's attention esp after finale when i didnt have my file with me. leaving my og to prepare for station games and CSI. standing under scorching hot sun since 1plus for like 3h a day. screaming my lungs out to brief and reinforce game rules. carrying and catching the huge balloons from the sc when i lost grip and throwing it into the hall. dancing and screaming like a mad woman during finale. but woohoo! it was all WORTHWHILE baby!

TELLERIA has once again proved itself to be the champ. we managed to defend our winning title since o1 though o2's tellerians mostly came from nehoma. WOOHOO! O1 and O2 SAINTALDEIA BEST TRIBE - TELLERIA!

orientation is definitely not what i expected to be. my prayers were heard and answered. thank you thank you! (: i thought i wont grow attached to 32. but after ytd, i was wrong. utterly wrong. they are very different from 28. but still. I LOVE BOTH OGs! (: they're all sweet people! i'll definitely keep all those lovely thank you msges from you guys! <3

o2 is over. sigh. council term is ending. though we went tru alot of shit together to the extent of being classified as sai kang warriors, though we may have some disagreements once in a while, though we may stumble sometimes, but its all worth it. i dont want it to end. i dont want it to end. ): some cried last nite, knowing that the end is drawing nearer. i guess im numb. but i know, when that day comes, where we stand on stage and are asked to remove our badges, tears will definitely flow down my cheeks. 12:07 PM

orientation2 is starting tmr. hms. its the first time im taking an og on my own. BAH.. i hope i wont make a fool outta myself. after this, it'll more or less be the end of my council term. last shot. make it a power shot. LOL. ok ignore that.

i pray for the best. i pray for people to accept me for me. i pray that nobody will compare me with anyone else. i dont pray that i can do better, but at least on par. i pray that everything will turn out well. i pray that i wont have you as my obstacle. i pray i'll have the strength and determination to press on no matter what the outcome may be, and whatever hindering obstacles lying ahead.



i dont feel good. ): dont take anything else away from me anymore, please? 8:58 PM

econs notes is a total waste of money. they summarized everything on aggregate demand and supply within a few pages when arnold didnt mind spending a whole chapter explaining everything bout them. HMS.. doesnt that say smth?

theory of income and employment. aggregate demand and supply. keynesian theory. all squashed into one. for what?! like ok, lecturers expect us to read up. but like hello?! if we are to read up on our own, whats the point of buying the notes when there is like nth inside?! squirms.

mcq test on friday. the day just after orientation 2. great. i'll be glad if i can keep myself awake during the test. -.- freaking unfair lah! we'll end damn late on finale. barely have enough time to sleep. and we have a test the next day. !!! i pity those who have spa too. sigh. AHH..

keep those studies aside for a while. no.1 just came back from hokkaido last nite! wanted to pick him up along with my dad. but decided to stay at home and complete chem eqm tut. (so guai rite? wahaha.) anw, he bought the dustball in totoro! you know that black furry thing that disappears when you try to catch it. AHH.. so cute! he bought long mao tooo! soft toy craze. hehe. he went ard japan tasting food again. afterall he specializes in the food industry rite? (side note: damnit. straits times picked the wrong pic to publish and its freaking SMALL! $#&@) i wanna go japan too! nono. hongkong first. made a date with my mom. HONGKONG AFTER MY As! WOOHOOO.. 4:48 PM

this entry came late. but hms anw, A level results were just out yesterday. congrats to those who have met or even exceeded their expectations. your efforts have truly paid off. well for those who didnt do as well as they expected, dont despair ya? there are so many paths ahead of you. some may be closed, but there are which are definitely open for you to walk on. look and you'll see.

apart from that, 27^th did very well. more than half the council scored at least 2As. a remarkable achievement. daniel with 4As. teng jie with 3As and 1B. gina with 2As. the list just goes on. wow. i can feel the pressure. and just to add on to it, councillors are expected to score like ABC for the coming block test. O.O are you kidding?! its not bout me not aiming high. its bout being realistic. i know where my capability lies. its up to me to determine my goal, and not anyone else. though i see it like a wake up call to people who needs to be reminded, hms.. i have my own target ya?

the stress level has definitely gone up by alot since ytd. next year, it'll be me taking my results. its scary. very scary. wonder how i'll fare. will my name be on the 3As list? hms.. we reap what we sow i guess.

racing against time. and yet im here, online. wasting it away. bah.. im tired. WAKE UP! 9:20 PM