ignorance is bliss. (: its good not to be so smart and be aware of everything happening ard you after all. the feeling sucks when you realise the truth. or rather, perceive what you see as the truth. (stop thinking you piece of shit. just let it be a go-in-and-come-out thing and you'll be fine.) agreed.

elsa: its so unfair. (blah blah blah) and here we are, feeling so miserable.
yes dear. BAH BAH BAH...

its sports day tmr. its a pity my class wont be participating as a class. but yup, will cheer for the individuals running for loy fatt. and council! (: GO COUNCIL GO!

my mom's flying off to japan tmr too. ah... last day for me to taste her yummilicious gourmet. i have chem make-up lessons tmr after sports day. which MEANS... i might not be able to catch a movie tmr. ): sigh. but oh well. whats a movie to sending my mom off to the airport man. it'll be 8 days without her presence. no more nagging and whinning, but ah... its just different when she's not ard. the house will be in a mess. everyone wont be home till wee hours. home will be empty most of the time. much less cooking in the kitchen etc. ): MOMMY COME HOME SOON!

mothers' day is ard the corner. perhaps i should make use of the time when she's away to get her smth. saw pretty cards while i was at citylink just now. you know, the box shop. forgot its name. AH.. but the prices are pretty steep too. oh, and i found the card soccer gave us too. OH MY! i didnt know they bought it from there lah. thanks soccer once again for the card! (: 8:32 PM

parents-meet tutor day falls on 5th may, which may be the same day for SAJC band concert. sorry xiu, if its on the same day, i doubt i'll have the mood to go after all the screwed up comments i'll be hearing. BAH..

initially i tot my bro could come, since my mom already gave the green light. BUT! jiwen said i can reschedule it so that my parents can see him or whoever i need to see on another day. GROANS.
i'll work things out. somehow.

ooh... no.2 bought my plug-ins for me! ok, its not really for me since he only bought 1 and he took it first. AH.. but whatever. think he'll be getting mine today. wahahaha. alrite. its time to save up to pay him back. it'll take some time. hehehehe..

TEAM SAJC did a great job ytd. didnt go sch since i wasnt feeling very well the night before. rushed down to clementi sports hall when rach called to tell me they're in the cab instead of the bus. !!! but anyhows, managed to catch most of the match. very exciting. the team really did a great job. though we lost 42-43. like ONE POINT! groans. but then, MI is known to have a strong bball team. so yup.

headed to rjc after that for rugby. alrite. im certified as a i-know-nuts-bout-rugby person. LOL. but after the game ytd, know ABIT lah. ABIT. haha. yup. great job done. rjc is tough. real tough. esp player 11. look at his hair. if the sch can condone that color, he must be a real good player. and he is. look at him run and charge through. wow. amazement.

all the best TEAM SAJC 2:53 PM

arh! i can kill msn and friendster already. been wondering why i dont have mail for the past few days (oh, i check via msn.) and when i came online today, i have like 15 new mail. O.O and there was an IMPT (well, not really. but ya. haha.) friendster msg inside!!! like AHHH! bloody shit!

darn it. i had to sign in and out friendster so many times just to view my inbox. groans. something's wrong with the system. and its just my inbox. dont see the problem happening in my friends' accounts.

BUT! BUT BUT.. nevertheless, i managed to read them even to the extent by clicking view source. LOL. but oh well. its not THAT impt after all. -.- alrite.. 7:29 PM

i give up on azureus. the download speed will always reduce to 0B/s and stagnant there. -.- direct downloading from friends is a much faster way to get songs i want. wahahaha.

alrite. my bro gave me his mp3-player. the memory space is very small. filled it up with 24 songs and its more than half filled already. groans. bah.. have to make do with whats given ya? but anw, i still haven bought my ear piece yet. so the mp3 player is quite useless actually. haha.

give and take man. you dont see it my way, so thats why you think you're always at the losing end. but since you choose to have things your way, its fine with me. but dont come crying back to us. things arent the same anymore since you made your choice yup? (its just an expression.) 3:21 PM

closed up. narrowed. contract. shrink. uncontrollable.

hearty pins! the 28th student council is selling hearty pins at a mere $2/- each for the National Heart Foundation. Buy from us! Do your bit for charity! (:

im only hoping for friday to be a great day. or at least a great night. psst sam. dont ps me k? LOL. 6:38 PM

my new whinning partner: my bro. wahahaha. was yelling at him since i stepped into the house. like BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH! hehehe.. and i managed to find out more secrets bout him. LOL.

guys can be real jerks you know that? like eeeeeeeeeeeeeks! pain in the ass man. ppppfffffttttt. 7:18 PM

been complaining alot recently. BAH.. its annoying. it, as in me complaining. not.. yeah you know? hms. this is smth zuan told me last mth. pasted this convey from my history.

zuan: i feel that uve changed alot since orientation. like ur life have been sucked dry.
me: haha. its like that lah. as in, its still the same me. just that im so caught up in stuff things seem to change?
zuan: of cos its the same you. yea and ur like not happy abt it.
me: it?

and the conversation ended just like that. think its cos someone had to use the com. but yeah, thats not the point. the point here is people ard me sense it before i do. not gonna start whinning again. its the end of the whinning season.

i remember someone used to tell me its almost impossible to find friends like those you've found in secondary sch. i think its zhenyu. or isit sam? but anw, through the past 1 yr plus, i can say im one lucky girl to have found a few. (:

things come and go. sitting back and watching the show. shant touch the sensitive issue once more. lets see how things go ya? 11:42 AM

dear diary, you know what? i think i shouldnt be so particular towards people who dont give a shit bout me. leaving me out of things. ignoring my presence and noticing me only when they need help. pushing all the shit work to me. etc etc.

just relax and enjoy. yup. thats what i ought to do. there's no use getting pissed over such stuff. they just make me moody. moody = BAD. yup. since i already know what kind of person they are, i shouldnt expect so much from them. so why bother? 9:49 PM

"Daddy daddy! bring me out to play!" a little child asked.

"NO! you're not allowed of the house forever and EVER!" her father gloated in delight.


trapped within the 4 walls, when will it be the day she can escape to the outside world? where there's full of light and freedom. when will it come? 10:48 PM